Knitting

I have always loved my hands. I have long fingers, and at one time they were strong too, and able to do amazing things.

I loved playing the piano (and the viola, and the saxophone). I loved using them to make things, sewing, or painting, crafting, baking, gardening. Fucking.

These days my hands are painful. After a day of use they can freeze, and I struggle to move my fingers at all. As I go to bed they are buzzing and tingling, and they ache. I often can’t even manage to scroll on my phone or type messages. Even as I type this my fingers, hands and wrists are hurting.

I started knitting again this year. I thought maybe I could manage a weather scarf, which just needs two rows a day to record the weather. (I am using old wool, I figured it wasn’t worth using anything special until I know whether I can do it). I am about two weeks behind though, I haven’t been able to knit every day. Some days I can only do a single row.

I haven’t given up though. I am hopeful that my fingers might get stronger. My legs seem to be improving a little, so why not my hands and arms too?